to my two little kiddo

playing one of my favourate Kitaro’s music – matsuri tonight while working on my photo editing…just like the nights I spend 19 years ago.. it was played over and over again 19 years ago when I was doing my artwork in the middle of the night. Those were one of my toughest time in my life. I was 19 years old, just completed my secondary school program and it was my 2nd year in The One Academy. Back then, I thought I was talented artist. After my SPM, unlike other classmates from science stream to continue their study in form six or overseas further study, I quit and join The One Academy for commerce art class. With only a few sketching, Tatsun approve me as one of their first batch of student. First year was still fine with me even though I didnt turn out to be the talented student in class, I was still trying my best then and surviving.. it was until the 2nd year when our family had the financial crisis. Everything became very tough.. I cant afford to even buying any posters colour tube… I had to spend overnight at my class mate’s house to use their airbrush machine for my homework.. I worked midnight at government building as cleaner brushing their floor.. I gave tuition to primary school children on every morning, when to college in the afternoon, conducted art class on weekend and did my homework every late night..I walked miles and miles away just to take a cheaper transportation to travel to college… none of the relatives even care how we were doing back then.. they didn’t even show their faces in our front gate worrying that we might borrow money from them..I didn’t know what to do.. the course fees was like a mountain to me every month I was so worry I didn’t have enough money to pay it…it was my saddest decision to quit my study and start looking for a job. Yes.. I remember my first job.. RM445 per month as a depot clerk.. I use to hate my family and myself.. why can’t I like my other class mates who didn’t score well study in overseas? why a top student like me only working as a clerk? where is my future? what can i be?

A year later…I finally wake up from all these.. with little saving over the year of overtime and hardworking, I enroll myself for evening class, begin my study in marketing field…2 years later, I completed my first professional degree and get into my shipping industry life.. over the years I climbing up in the corporate world, I didnt forget about my passion in art and interest I developed during those days in The One Academy… finally 4 years ago.. I picked up my first DSLR and start going crazy, madly in love with wedding photography…it was just like filling up the missing part during my twenties…

Photography become part of my life now… beside shooting wedding photography, every day without fail, I will be visiting those masters’s artwork websites and get inspired! I feel so excited just by looking at their is like a booster and vitamins for me that keep me going for better images, hunger to capture more.. like someone I heard before, The best image is at the next assignment…

My two little is just like roller coaster, one day.. if you feel tired and wanna give up on what you are pursuing.. please dont….never give up so easily in your life…I remember one of the motivation course I attend saying that we are born as a fighter, a champion…why? hey, we are one out of the million sperms who swim all the way to the ovary and we are the first out of million! so, why are we now not living as a fighter and winner?  if your daddy can do it, I am sure you can do better than your old man… dare to dream and pursue all the way!


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  • Mimi LossyOctober 25, 2011 - 1:17 am

    your kids can be proud of their daddy!!!!

About Edwin Tan


Yes, this is a dream to me, I daydream a lot and let me share with you a few of my dreams here. I always dream of creating a website to record every moments of my life and share with my kiddo when their grow up one day and also dream about carrying my cameras and travel around the world, see the world thru my eye,yes, I love travel, it is my ultimate dream to travel around the world, learning thru travel is the best dream I ever have. Dream is an initial point to me. It help me to look at what I really want in my life. As Malaysia Wedding Photographer with international wedding photography membership (WPJA, AGWPJA, WPPI & PPA), I started my photography passion at the end of year 2007. Like most of the beginners, I was purely having fun with my DSLR capturing my family members portraits and events. After attend the talk by one of the master wedding photographer, it change my whole world. I was so touched by the slideshow shown on the projector for the showcase of prewedding and church wedding, the touching moments, the dramatic angles, all these impact was so strong that it hit direct into my heart and awake my passion towards wedding photography. From there onwards, I have focus all my passion on wedding photography and never feel more satisfied when I capture the moments for couple which last for a life time. Whenever I imagine the couple looking back those photos captured by me in ten, fifteen years from now and think, "yeah, that was the moments" "look, how silly you was!" "oh, I cried when I first saw you walks down the aisle i", "yes, I remember what your dad told me that day when he placed your hand in my right hand from his arm after walks down the aisle".. all these keep my heart warm and keep me going on & on for this long path without a single regret or tiredness ...

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